my 31 confessions

i got this off the asian sensation's blog.. looked kind of fun so here goes....

1. i get claustrophobic in elevators. i can usually avoid thinking about it for about 30 seconds. fortunately i tend to reach my destination in that time. i don't know what would happen after 30 seconds...
2. i rarely devote myself, fully, to anything
3. i like to wear guys' jeans/shorts
4. i rarely say what i'm thinking
5. i think a lot of things
6. i've learned that people interpret this as shyness, i don't think of myself as shy. a lot of negative connotations come to mind with that quality.. like fear or insecurity.
7. i have a lot of things i should be doing right now: huge AP lit/comp project due in less than a week (haven't started) along with multiple college applications that need filled out
8. staci's the name. procrastination's the game.
9. i feel overwhelmed when i think about college
10. so i don't think about it
11. 11 is my favorite #. and i don't like it when someone else on a field/court is wearing it if they are more skilled than i am.
12. i get a strange feeling when someone says something like, "i'm so tired i don't even feel like i'm here." or "it was weird, i didn't feel like i was there, like i was watching myself from somewhere else." relating to out-of-body experiences. i feel envious that they only get them once a month, week, day, whatever.
13. i really, really like watching laguna beach.
14. i have no idea how i feel like i know a complete stranger, or how i'm emotionally sucked into their lives.
15. i love to sit in front of fireplaces...but we never use ours. "it smokes up the house."
16. i want to live in colorado.
17. i don't feel like venturing out to start a new life, at the moment. it could just be that i'm tired and out of energy right now.
18. i can't get enough snowboarding. i was born with the need for speed.
19. if i were a guy, i would dress completely emo. totally rad hair across my forehead and all...and if andrew were a girl, he wouldn't be attracted to me.
20. i was surprised to find myself unsatisfied and restless (in terms of me.. that equals sad) on saturday, after our last CC meet.
21. i drank the first pop i'd had in months.
22. i didn't even enjoy it. i was still sad.
23. i am unsatisfied and restless a lot. hmm, i'm sure they have pills for that...the legal kind.
24. part of me is really excited to get to know some new people at college
25. i think its funny how different my life would be if i had stayed at cair paravel
26. my room has quite of bit of zebra print in it. i don't even like zebras. but it looks really tight with my red futon.
27. i hate to clean my room/bathroom.
28. i'm afraid of what will happen to my body if i stop running. just quit. and keep eating the same amount...ugh.
29. i want a full size bed again. i dont know what made me think sacrificing the full for a twin was worth it.
30. i don't remember the last time i was mad.
31. i love to eat peanut butter & syrup...with a baby spoon..out of a shot glass.