numb

you made me feel alive
full of wonder and sheer happiness
now you make me feel dead
i can't feel anything

i won't let myself
you don't deserve it
i could let the tears fall
but that wouldn't solve anything

now i spend my days
somewhere in the middle of these two extremes
wondering around with these 5 meaningless senses
this broken heart is now just an organ for pumping blood

numb to everything
you laugh, smile, and touch me
i wish i could feel it
such stimulus has the reverse effect now

i gaze in wonder at the face i once knew so well
how can that laugh, that melodious sound,
make me feel so cold
now the choking sobs come

how can i feel nothing when i'm with you
it wasn't meant to be this way
i want to hold you and tell you everything
i can't do that either