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hah! funny story. today i stood outside naked. it was legit. i was kickin it at home in the jacuzzi after work. aaaand it was cold, rainy, & (ahhhh delightfully) windy. we've had a bit of a seattle winter up here in coeur d'alene. it's awesome! God had me to himself tonight. standing there, beholding his beauty in the midst cool, light rain he showed me how i'd always just focussed on the walk from the back door to the jacuzzi gazeebo. i'd been missing the gorgeous trees & everything & how vast it is, and how i'm in the world. then he showed me how the gazeebo (looking forward to something close & exciting & tangible is a part of the grand beauty). it completes it. then i noticed i was all concerned about how my towel (i was getting cold by this time) kept falling & he said stop worrying about yourself. what the junk does it even matter if it falls? you were just fully unclothed anyway. i can't get over how happy i am. obeying him is key. unlock the door to life.

hahahahah i was driving today, blaring my music way too loud, and i killed it at the intersection i was so into it. hahahahahaaaaaaah yea. haha

last night i asked God to give me jeff's go-ahead too about going to north carolina (against all odds & everything he was verbally saying to me). hah. he did. i looked up after bearing my soul to jeff about matters....and with a swift flick of his hand, he pointed away & said, "go!" and i knew that was God, not jeff.

later trever said, staci it couldn't be clearer, i think you should go. the smile on your face says it all. : )

trever got me an esv bible. it's bomb. word for word translation. chea! bring on the greek. also....i'm still waiting for my interlinear greek/english bible to show up on the doorstep.

God asked me to translate bibles 1 1/2 years ago. i recently have stopped doubting that it's impossible. hah...aka started believing it's possible. ahhhh yea. bliss. obedience. everytime i ask God what he thinks about north carolina he says i love you. hahahha he's stunning.

wow. if i'd only known this was the problem. i was fighting the future with all my heart mind soul & strength. haha, let me tell you this: if God's called you to do something, it doesn't go away if you ignore it. everything kinds of concaves and stalactites until you are left staring it in the face. finally. oh. hm.. is that what all of this was about? that thing you asked me to do a year and a half ago that i said ehh ask me again when i'm 30? geez. why didn't you just say so? i'd be happy to. golly. i thought we'd had this settled when i didn't take any action back then. it meant i wasn't ready. hhhhhokay then! AYEAYEAYEAYEAYE LEESSSDOIT!

i have a living hope. i have a future. God has a plan for me- of this i'm sure. of this i'm sure. Jesus you're my firm foundation. i know i can stand secure. Jesus you're my firm foundation. i put my hope in your holy Word. i put my hope in your holy Word.

oh. one more thing. i just ate my usual bedtime snack...cereal. i usually eat it dry with a mug of milk close at hand. because i like to control it. i don't like the sogging process taking place while i'm trying to enjoy it as it is. you know? i like to enjoy each phase fully. and since that's not actually feasible, i enjoy the one (dry) phase fully. occasionally i'll add my mug of milk to the bowl about half-way through. hahahahah & that usually ends up stressing me out & i'm suddenly racing the cereal sog monster. however. i just poured my mug o'milk in....and let it set. yes. until it had just about had it's way with my precious granolas. then i partook. and it was soooooooooooooogooooooooooooooooood! ohmygoshtheflavorstotallyexplodedinmymouth!

moral of the story? if we are willing to trade in what's comfortable/controlled/somewhat good, we might just get something twisted, uncontrollable, & extraordinary!